Let us pray. Ever present God, you who continually call your people to yourself, draw us by the power of your Holy Spirit into such a warm and binding relationship that we may faithfully follow you all the days of our lives, into the deep waters, as you lead. Amen.
Today our reading present us with 3 call stories.
- Isaiah’s grand vision in the temple and his reluctant response until the angel uses the hot coal to empower him to respond with, Here I am, Send Me.
- Paul’s road to Damascus encounter with the Risen Christ lies behind his words today in the letter to the church in Corinth. The appearance of Christ in a blinding light turned his life around, canceling his prior vision of persecuting the church with new calling, a new vision of preaching to Gentiles about the love of God.
- And the calling of the first disciples to become fishers for people instead. Throughout Peter’s life he continued to need to repent, to learn to follow, to grow in discipline and wisdom.
Throughout the scriptures we find the repeating pattern of call, resistance and acceptance of vocation …
- Abraham and Sarah were called to move, to start a new tribe of faithful people who would depend only on God.
- Moses was called to set slaves free even though he felt inadequate to the task.
- Nathan and Samuel and Jeremiah and Amos and all the prophets were called to share their understanding of God’s will for the people, to redirect minds to God.
- Esther and Jael and Judith were called to use their skills and contacts as women to shape the future of God’s people.
- Mary was called to an overwhelming life of faith that must have often seemed more than she could bear.
Each of those biblical stories is told, not to daunt us by comparison, but to show us that God calls ordinary people, fishermen, shepherds, farmers, misfits, women, young girls and boys. God calls each person in a different way and for a different purpose. In nearly all of those instances, the people resisted their vocation at first. They felt inadequate or needed some sense of empowerment.
We, Samuel, might need someone like Eli to help us hear God’s call. Like Moses we may need to be convinced that we are worthy. We may need to be convinced, as Nathanael was, that Jesus is who he says he was. But the same God who calls us also empowers us, giving us the abilities and the help we need to live lives of purpose and meaning.
We may jokingly say to someone who has just done a great job at something that they normally don’t do, “Boy, did you miss your calling.” But, we don’t often ask retired people “What is your calling?” although perhaps we should. When we move into this stage, one where we are not defined by our vocation, yet, God is calling us still, to follow.
Mary Oliver’s poem The Summer Day addresses the vocation question. In that poem I hear the question of purpose in a life of ease like many of us live. She says,
I don’t know exactly what a prayer is.
I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down
into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass,
how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields,
which is what I have been doing all day.
Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?
—Mary Oliver
The tasks of the third stage of life include those of purpose and calling, for sure. We may not wind up with a dramatic change in circumstances like Peter, James and John had. It may be that we are called to the task of life review, or reconciliation of broken relationships, it may be philanthropy or the giving of a legacy gift. It may be that it is a push to follow Peter’s example of pushing out from the shore of our safe and comfortable lives, out into the deep water of spiritual growth, of really listening to Christ’s presence in our lives and opening our hearts to the opportunities right in front of us.
Parker Palmer is a writer whose work I’ve read for decades. Recently, he wrote an essay, just before his 78th birthday called, Withering into the Truth. The title comes from a poem by William Butler Yeats.
Though leaves are many, the root is one;
Through all the lying days of my youth
I swayed my leaves and flowers in the sun,
Now may I wither into the truth.
He says, that actively embracing aging gives us a chance to move beyond “the lying days of my youth” and “wither into the truth” — if we resist the temptation to Botox our withering,” he adds.
It’s not that the youthful “lies” were intentional. We just didn’t know enough about ourselves, the world, and the relation of the two to tell the truth. So, what we said on those subjects earlier came from the ego, a notorious liar.
“Coming to terms with the soul-truth of who I am — of my complex and often confusing mix of darkness and light — has required my ego to shrivel up. Nothing shrivels a person better than age: that’s what all those wrinkles are about!”
He goes on, “Whatever truthfulness I’ve achieved on this score comes not from a spiritual practice, but from having my ego so broken down and composted by life that eventually I had to yield and say, “OK, I get it. I’m way less than perfect.” I envy folks who come to personal truth via spiritual discipline: I call them “contemplatives by intention.” Me, I’m a contemplative by catastrophe.
To find our wisdom, to age well, involves letting our ego shrivel. Interesting! When we talk about our calling, our gifts, our vocation—we can easily move into the territory of the ego. I can do this! I feel called to that. The ego is an important driver for us in our working lives—pushing us on to achieve and accomplish.
Some of you got to know my dad last year. When he lived in Arizona he attended a men’s group at his church called Caring and Sharing. Most of the men in the group had been doctors, lawyers, professors, CEO’s. He called them not VIPS but PIPs, Previously Important People. My dad too, accomplished all kinds of things in his working life. But he came to understand that his legacy would not be his achievements but his spirit, his positive attitude, his supportive and gentle manner, his tender heart full of emotion, and his simple trusting faith.
What really matters in the end but loving others, growing closer to God and meeting the needs around us? St Augustine said we were here to love God and enjoy life. Kurt Vonnegut believed we are here to be the eyes and conscience of God
It’s so nice to be at a place in life when we don’t have to prove anything to anyone anymore. We are free to love, to grow close to God and to serve those around us.
We find our purpose by looking around us to identify the greatest needs and how they fit with our skill set and our particular God-given gifts. Vincent Van Gogh once said Great things are done by a series of small things brought together.” Even if you’re only here in Mazatlan for a few weeks or a month or two your input can make a difference and bring a better future for others. It can make a difference in your own life too.
Annie Dillard said, the way we spend our days is the way we spend our lives. Like Isaiah, Paul, and Peter we are invited out into the deep water to follow where God leads, to claim our identity as God’s chosen ones, strengthened and empowered for service, enriched in every way.
Whether we are hesitant and afraid of the tasks before us and insecure in our abilities, or confident in God’s leading and power and eager to follow, we are each called, called for a purpose known to God, known in the deep recesses of our hearts, and perhaps also known to the wise people in our lives.
Let us pray–God we long for clarity of vision in our choices. We long to know and do what you want us to. Open us to your call to each of us. Guide us so that we may walk in your presence and power. Amen.